mediocre runner

How do you deal with not doing what you set out to do?

I was supposed to run 5-6 miles today. By "supposed to," I mean that's what I set out to do. Training plan still hasn't started, so I'm just trying to maintain some decent weekly mileage/workout frequency.

Six miles didn't happen, three did. Three kinda slow-ish miles. There's a lot of reasons. I know I didn't hydrate properly yesterday for any significant running. Last night, I was at a wedding, drinking beer, and dancing around in heels. (Heels and I are not friends. I'm not what you would call "graceful" and fall in them all the time. also, they really bug my hips.) I was slow to get going, but I did what I could to try to get off to a good start this AM.

I have not been running outside a lot lately due to my seriously serious hate of humidity. However, i've recently come to terms with the fact that it will be good for me in the long run (he he) to acclimate and deal. It will make me a stronger runner, right?

Anyway, all of these things are kind of excuses. The bottom line is, I just didn't push through it. I gave up. I got to mile 3, I was close to my house, I was breathing really hard, I was hot. I just stopped.

I'm not going to beat myself up about it terribly. But I am going to beat myself up about it a little bit. I could've pushed through. I could've run further. I could've finished the damn 6 miles. Some beating up has to occur here. Running isn't always all rainbows and cupcakes. Sometimes it's hard, sometimes it sucks. But pushing through those times are what makes us a better runner, a better person.

Today, I was just average. I'm admitting it to the interwebz in the hopes that next time I feel like copping out for no good reason (aka, not about to die) that I push those wimpy thoughts to the side and act like the runner I want to be.

Quitters don't get sub 2hr half marathons.