Lame

I am off to a very annoying slow start this year. I haven't been running as much as I want or should. I haven't been reading. I just watch tv and fb chat. LAME. I suppose it doesn't help that I am constantly worried about when the funding will run out, or change, for the program I work for and am constantly stressing about finding a job. Which is also lame.

I just hung my new calendar. I wrote out my half marathon training program. I have hung it right next to my bed. Literally, right.next.to. As in, if i toss and turn to much i'll probably knock it down. I'm hoping this helps because the hardest part about running is getting out of bed in the morning. I hate going to the gym in the evening. I want to relax, and the gym is always packed after work- generally with douches. It's empty in the morning, the people that work at the front desk are very chipper, and no meat heads try to talk to me. It's also dark, and negative a million out at 5/6AM. Running outside that early in this cold is just not something i'm going to do. Long runs mid-morning on the weekend are ok. But that probably won't happen this weekend because the high on saturday is 10. TEN!!! ahh!

So calendar next to bed so when I roll over, away from my alarm, I'll see it - and theoretically be motivated to get up, and my caffeine pills on the bedside table to get my ass going.

Here's to hoping I get out of this rut, and stop being a lazy, excuse making fat ass.

:)